I make stuff more than draw stuff. I miss drawing, though. It's soothing and pleasing and something I can do while I'm watching TV. I admit that I get frustrated a lot. I am privileged enough to know several fantastic artists, and I know my art just doesn't stack up to theirs. I'm not looking for pity - these guys work so hard on their art, all the time! But maybe I should try harder. I'm so rarely happy with anything I draw; it's like nothing matches up to what's in my head. That's why I never post anything. But I feel encouraged by this pony.

"I'm not happy with it" is a pretty common refrain in my head. Even the things I do consider myself good at I never consider done, or good enough. But you know what? Maybe it's worth putting out there anyway. Maybe my standards are just too high.

I've been missing a certain sense of community recently. I used to love anime and drawing and geeking out. Somehow, the gaming conventions I work at don't seem to give me that rush of cheerfulness I used to have, though they are enjoyable in their own way (otherwise, I wouldn't keep at them). I mean, I'm the kind of person who grins ear to ear for 30 minutes after one playthrough of nyancat. There really aren't people around me who are like that. Maybe I will get lucky, and meet some here ^_^